{"id":1171,"date":"2012-10-02T13:33:18","date_gmt":"2012-10-02T17:33:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=1171"},"modified":"2012-10-02T13:33:18","modified_gmt":"2012-10-02T17:33:18","slug":"insecurity-the-bully","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=1171","title":{"rendered":"Insecurity, The Bully"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Do you know her? Insecurity? If you do, then you know she\u2019s a possessed bully.<\/p>\n

Insecurity has an uncanny way of showing up even when she’s uninvited. She is obnoxious and rude. She is no friend of mine. No siree.<\/p>\n

Insecurity annoys me to the utmost. Every time I think I\u2019m going to beat her at her own game. She winds up winning.<\/p>\n

What makes matters worse is that she\u2019s always laughing at me. You know the sinister kind you hear in a horror flick. Infuriating.<\/p>\n

I want to kick her in the butt, like \u201cKarate Kid\u201d or \u201cRocky\u201d.<\/p>\n

Insecurity has been bullying me all my life. Every time I would get on stage to sing, I would hear her cackling and saying, \u201cHa! She thinks she can sing. Watch her crack or forget her lyrics. It\u2019s hilarious.\u201d<\/p>\n

I start to recite scriptures to myself to drown her out. Nothing works, I could feel my throat constrict, heart race and palms sweat. Insecurity wins again.<\/p>\n

Insecurity always sneaks up on me unawares as I sit staring at a blank page. She howls, \u201cYou can\u2019t write, just like you can\u2019t sing. There are so many other talented people who can really sing, write and do everything much better than you. Haven\u2019t you realized you don\u2019t matter? Nobody is even remotely interested in what you have to say. Look at you, what have you accomplished in your life? You are going to be 46 years old and you\u2019ve done nothing. Zip. Zilch. Nada. You know why? Because you are a loser with a capital ‘L’.\u201d<\/p>\n

At this point, I\u2019m either going to do “Moves like Jagger” or go “Rambo” on her. Or better yet\u2026 shoot her! Metaphorically speaking, that is. I shalt not murder. So, get thee behind me… Insecurity.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sick of listening to her go on and on and on. She’s incessant and never shuts up. I\u2019m tired of her already. I want to be free of Insecurity, once and for all, whatever the cost.<\/p>\n