{"id":3950,"date":"2019-06-19T16:01:56","date_gmt":"2019-06-19T20:01:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=3950"},"modified":"2019-06-19T22:09:32","modified_gmt":"2019-06-20T02:09:32","slug":"a-loss-for-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=3950","title":{"rendered":"A Loss For Time"},"content":{"rendered":"

I never thought about time the way I do now. Before\u00a0becoming disabled, my days lead into the next without much thought of what awaited me.<\/p>\n

I was once healthy, active and strong. I took pride in my ceaseless\u00a0energy and workaholic ways. I felt like I was on top of the world. Never did I imagine my life would take the turn that it did and I would be faced with limitations.<\/p>\n

On dealing with relentless health issues and that of my children, I was smacked\u00a0head on with my own mortality and a loss for time.<\/p>\n

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Photo by Fredrik \u00d6hlander on Unsplash<\/p><\/div>\n

We all want time to stand still, especially when life is good. We live in the moment and relish it for what it’s worth, believing\u00a0it will last forever.<\/p>\n

I can assure you, I never imagined being in the situation I am today. If someone would have told me this when things were going well, I would’ve scoffed and laughed in their face.<\/p>\n

But here I am, facing what is, as time ticks by and I can’t get one second of it back.<\/p>\n

When I was forced to slow down due to my illnesses,\u00a0I was faced with time. Time I once had and squandered. Time that’s left\u00a0which I bargain with God daily and beg Him not to take me too soon. More so, for my kid’s sake, not so much for mine.<\/p>\n

Well, perhaps a little… as I think about all the time I’ve wasted when I thought I had plenty of time.<\/p>\n

The Bible says it best in James 4:13-14:<\/p>\n

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“Go to now, ye that say, To day or to morrow we will go into such a city, and continue there a year, and buy and sell, and get gain:<\/span><\/p>\n

Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.”<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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Yet, there is this part of us that thinks we aren’t going to die, that we will live on earth forever.\u00a0Until we are reminded, through sickness or an\u00a0untimely death of a loved one.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

I’ve contemplated all the time I’ve literally wasted, never once thinking I’d be in the position I’m in today. I took my health, energy and vitality for granted.<\/p>\n

I also had plans.<\/p>\n

For one, I was going to retire at my previous job of 23 years. Never thinking I’d ever become disabled and\u00a0unable to work anymore. That wasn’t something I thought was possible\u00a0and was the\u00a0furthest thing from my mind, too.<\/p>\n

Yet, here I am… dealing with one health issue after another for the past three years and things only seem to be getting worse instead of better.<\/p>\n

However, I’m not writing this to depress you.\u00a0The purpose of this post\u00a0is\u00a0a reminder that life can change in a second, minute, hour, or day. You can be fine one minute and get hit with something the next. Life–as you know it–can radically shift in a blink.<\/p>\n

We\u00a0never\u00a0plan for stuff to happen. It’s not in our control. The only thing in our control is today. If you have God, your health and mental faculties, then as Benjamin Franklin\u00a0quoted, “Don’t put off for tomorrow what you can do today.”<\/p>\n

Wise words which I would encourage you to heed.<\/p>\n

Please don\u2019t wait until you retire to pursue something you\u2019ve always wanted to do. A dream you want to pursue. A place you want to visit. Make a plan and do it, don\u2019t wait.<\/p>\n

There is a loss for time and once it’s gone, you can’t get it back. Take advantage while you still can.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I never thought about time the way I do now. Before\u00a0becoming disabled, my days lead into the next without much thought of what awaited me. I was once healthy, active and strong. I took pride in my ceaseless\u00a0energy and workaholic ways. I felt like I was on top of the world. Never did I imagine […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[1568,1516,90],"tags":[1565,831,1566,809,1425,1535,1490,50,370,112,1564,1563],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3950"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3950"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3950\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3954,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3950\/revisions\/3954"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3950"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3950"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3950"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}