{"id":833,"date":"2012-08-10T11:51:54","date_gmt":"2012-08-10T15:51:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=833"},"modified":"2012-08-10T11:51:54","modified_gmt":"2012-08-10T15:51:54","slug":"deny-the-lie-youre-a-hippo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/?p=833","title":{"rendered":"Deny The Lie: You’re a Hippo!"},"content":{"rendered":"

I struggled with my weight all my life. I have this love\/hate relationship with my body. Presently, I’m at my highest weight ever.\u00a0 God bless my husband though, he still tells me I’m beautiful.\u00a0 But I don’t feel very beautiful.\u00a0 I feel fat and I am fat.<\/p>\n

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I remember the first time I felt shame connected with my weight.\u00a0 It was at a beach. I must have been about maybe eight or nine years old. I had just gotten stung in the eye by a jelly fish and was crying. I was in my bathing suit and I vividly remember children laughing at me because of my weight.<\/p>\n

The curse of being a chubby has haunted me my entire life. I guess I can blame it on genetics. We all inherited a slow metabolism. Plus, everyone in my family loves to cook and eat.<\/p>\n

I remember kids making fun of me all the time because of my weight.\u00a0 They called me wheelie tripe (whatever that is), peel a potato and last but not least, a hippo.<\/p>\n

I’ve got a better one for you.\u00a0 One day when I was about thirteen years of age, I was hanging out with my attractive, thin girlfriend and her guy friends. We were all chatting and listening to a song by one of my favorite bands growing up, Foreigner.<\/p>\n

Out of the blue, one of her guy friends decides to tell me I’m bigger than a mack truck!\u00a0 Can you believe it?\u00a0 Out of nowhere this dude decides to say I’m bigger than a mack truck.\u00a0 Meanwhile, I wasn’t.\u00a0 However, those words have been forever etched in my memory, never to be forgotten.<\/p>\n

However, what I believe really took things over the edge for me was when I fell inlove for the first time. It was puppy love, but I really digged this boy. All summer long we hung out and then when school started, he completely ignored me as if I didn’t exist.\u00a0 I was devastated.<\/p>\n

So I went over to him and asked if I could speak to him privately.\u00a0 He reluctantly agreed.\u00a0 We went into some hallway and I asked him why he was ignoring me.\u00a0 He tells me I should jog around the block a couple times and lose some weight. This was his ingenious and thoughtful response.<\/p>\n

Basically, I was cramping his style because I wasn’t cool enough to be seen with him.\u00a0 Well, that just did it for me.<\/p>\n

Unfortunately, those memories still haunt me today.\u00a0 I believed all the lies and it has leaked into everything I do.<\/p>\n

However, I’ve been working on denying the lie, which is why I decided to be a part of Jennifer Luitweiler’s<\/a> “Deny the Lie” blog link-up.<\/p>\n

It’s time to deny the lies.\u00a0 What about you? What lies have you been believing about yourself ?<\/p>\n

Please feel free to share your thoughts in the comment section.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I struggled with my weight all my life. I have this love\/hate relationship with my body. Presently, I’m at my highest weight ever.\u00a0 God bless my husband though, he still tells me I’m beautiful.\u00a0 But I don’t feel very beautiful.\u00a0 I feel fat and I am fat. I remember the first time I felt shame […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/833"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=833"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/833\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":836,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/833\/revisions\/836"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=833"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=833"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ordinaryservant.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=833"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}