Author Archives: Ordinary Servant

Like We Don’t Exist

The other day while I was walking to Port Authority after a doctor’s appointment, I noticed a young boy swaying and stumbling under the weight of his huge backpack like if he was drunk. At a distance, he appeared too young to be walking alone on the streets of Manhattan. I felt a tug and […]

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Commitment

The dictionary defines commitment as “the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc.” Through the course of my life, I’ve had trouble committing to things and sticking with losing weight, exercising, writing a book and a host of other things. Which is why I was petrified when I got married again […]

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Redeeming Lost Time

I was speaking with my therapist last week about choices. I was explaining why certain things didn’t happen in my life and what occurred and why it lead me to where I am today. There was a significant amount of loss. The topic came up because I was rehashing what happened in my writing group. […]

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Invisible Battles

For most of my life, I’ve been fighting invisible battles which I had no name for. I always felt this inexplicable fear, dread or impending doom, like something terrible was going to happen. It was only in the past few years that I’ve begun to understand what I’m contending with. I always knew something was […]

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A New Decade

Happy New Year. I can’t believe we are well into the new year and a new decade. Right before the new year stuck, the Lord gave me two verses. “I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:14  “God is with her, she will not […]

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God’s Hourglass

“But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided?” Luke 12:20 “But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.” Matthew 24:36 “Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For […]

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His Eternal Well

“And he must needs go through Samaria.” John 4:4 This verse jumped off the page recently. I thought about how Jesus went out of his way to meet the Samaritan woman. Samaritans were mixed; half Jewish and half Gentile. The Jews had no dealings with the Samaritans, they were rejected. So, not only was Jesus […]

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The Mentally Ill Christian

It’s hard to have mental illness, but it’s even harder for a Christian. Most days, it feels like you’re drowning. Drowning in isolation, fears, and worries that shoot at you like a barrage of stray bullets. If only it would stop. If only there was peace.     Unfortunately, most don’t understand what it’s like, not even the […]

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Glorious Weakness by Alia Joy

Paperback: 240 pages Publisher: Baker Books Price: $15.99 Purchase: Amazon | BN                 Description As a girl, Alia Joy came face to face with weakness, poverty, and loss in ways that made her doubt God was good. There were times when it felt as if God had abandoned her. What she […]

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A Loss For Time

I never thought about time the way I do now. Before becoming disabled, my days lead into the next without much thought of what awaited me. I was once healthy, active and strong. I took pride in my ceaseless energy and workaholic ways. I felt like I was on top of the world. Never did I imagine […]

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I Discovered Donna Tartt

I have to be honest, it’s been a long time since I have come across an author whose writing literally captivated me. Donna Tartt is that author.   I discovered her by borrowing The Goldfinch from the library on audio. The narrator, David Pittu is absolutely fabulous. He is by far the best narrator I have ever […]

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