Insecurity, The Bully

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Do you know her? Insecurity? If you do, then you know she’s a possessed bully.

Insecurity has an uncanny way of showing up even when she’s uninvited. She is obnoxious and rude. She is no friend of mine. No siree.

Insecurity annoys me to the utmost. Every time I think I’m going to beat her at her own game. She winds up winning.

What makes matters worse is that she’s always laughing at me. You know the sinister kind you hear in a horror flick. Infuriating.

I want to kick her in the butt, like “Karate Kid” or “Rocky”.

Insecurity has been bullying me all my life. Every time I would get on stage to sing, I would hear her cackling and saying, “Ha! She thinks she can sing. Watch her crack or forget her lyrics. It’s hilarious.”

I start to recite scriptures to myself to drown her out. Nothing works, I could feel my throat constrict, heart race and palms sweat. Insecurity wins again.

Insecurity always sneaks up on me unawares as I sit staring at a blank page. She howls, “You can’t write, just like you can’t sing. There are so many other talented people who can really sing, write and do everything much better than you. Haven’t you realized you don’t matter? Nobody is even remotely interested in what you have to say. Look at you, what have you accomplished in your life? You are going to be 46 years old and you’ve done nothing. Zip. Zilch. Nada. You know why? Because you are a loser with a capital ‘L’.”

At this point, I’m either going to do “Moves like Jagger” or go “Rambo” on her. Or better yet… shoot her! Metaphorically speaking, that is. I shalt not murder. So, get thee behind me… Insecurity.

I’m sick of listening to her go on and on and on. She’s incessant and never shuts up. I’m tired of her already. I want to be free of Insecurity, once and for all, whatever the cost.

Do you struggle with insecurity? Are you ready to kick her in the butt and tell her where to go?

  • If we band together, she will become the insignificant gnat that she truly is. Unite! 🙂

  • You matter. Your voice matters. You are a beautiful child of God. Lean into Him and allow Him to help you kick her to the curb. He does not think ANY of those things about you. He loves you just as you are. And so do I! 🙂
    Another great book you might get alot out of is “So Long Insecurity” by Beth Moore. I didn’t think I really had insecurity as an issue until I read the book. She covers so many things that you wouldn’t normally think about.
    Will be praying for you. And as Christine says, let’s band together and unite!!

    • Yeah, Beth Moore is great. Thank you my dear friend. I am so grateful for your friendship and encouragement. I am confronting that pesky bully. With God, support and unity, you can overcome and achieve anything. 🙂

  • You’re a good writer and a very creative person, Pilar. Nothing to be insecure about.

    • Wow, coming from you, that is a major whopper of a compliment. I so admire you and your writing. 🙂

  • Lisa Taylor

    oh. yeah.

    • Hi there Lisa, thanks for dropping by. Writers Unite! Yes!!