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What Was This Year Like For You?

If I were to think of one word that described this year for me, it would be change.

This year was jam packed with changes, big and small. There were a lot of adjustments I had to make on account of all the changes too.

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Change has never been an easy thing for me. So this year was a real challenge on multiple levels, but it stretched me and my faith.

During the summer months, I was filled with angst and anxiety. I hadn’t felt so nervous in a long time. It was affecting my sleep, my job and my life. It took everything in me to trust the Lord through a shaky and unstable time. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen and I confess, I was scared.

All I could do was talk to God and ask Him to help me. I am happy to report that He got me through the tough time and turned it around for good.

This year through all the influx of change, I managed to accomplish a lot. I couldn’t do it without the Lord and the support of the man He blessed me with.

There is a saying that behind every great man is a good woman, but I say this, that behind every happy wife is a great husband.

I can attest, I have the best husband in the world. It’s not to boast or brag, I’m just telling the truth and paying tribute.

I realize what I have been given is more than gifts under a tree. We mustn’t take for granted the blessings of those we love, a roof over our heads, food in our stomachs, and clothing on our backs.

The fact that we have Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith. He is the greatest gift of all.

I’m grateful for what I have. I give thanks unto God for being in my right mind, for good health, for my husband and children, family, friends, my job and colleagues.

I think about those who are in prison, those who are hungry, those who are sick, those who have lost family members, parents who have missing children, those who are homeless, the list goes on.

I can find a hundred things to complain about, but when I look around me, I give thanks for what the Lord has done in my life and the ability He gives me to accomplish so much.

So here is to a spectacular 2014. I pray 2014 is the best year yet, for all of us.

Happy New Year!

How was this year for you?

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War Ravaged Heart

There are times I’m so worn and weary, when the harshness and realities of life overwhelm me.

When I can’t find the words to encompass all that I’m feeling or experiencing.

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When my heart and soul grieves, I find myself writing poetry instead.

So without further ado…

There are different kinds of hell, you know,

One from within and one from without,

Goodbyes are torture and change a torment,

Helplessness proceeds forth into oblivion,

Emotions tear at the war ravaged heart,

Clouds grey, oppressive and morose,

Where is the sun in the clouds above?

Sadness, disappointment, overwhelming the light.

Accursed is Change and Goodbyes so hard.

Tears run like a dam,

Suspending time,

Hoping once again,

For moments of serenity.

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It’s Hard To Say Goodbye

Do you find it hard to say goodbye? I do.

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Lately, there are so many changes happening, and with those changes, goodbyes.

The changes are occurring on my job and where I live. I’m having to say goodbye to people I have known for a long while.

I’m not good with changes or goodbyes.

In the days ahead, I’m going to have to say goodbye to a number of people I care about, from co-workers to neighbors.

No, I’m not going anywhere, they are. I’m happy for them, but sad for me.

Change always unsettles me, it challenges my stability. It makes me feel insecure. Especially when I am unaware of what’s to come, the unknown.

There are times when we are forced to say goodbye to people we care about, whether it is for our own mental/emotional health or the inevitable, death.

Those final goodbyes are the hardest.


2013 has been riddled with change and goodbyes. I’m trying hard to cope, but deep down, I am preoccupied with it all and what’s to come.

I realize we have no control over what the future holds, we only have today, the moment. But in times like this, I seem to allow the moment to be robbed by worry and anxiety.

I know this is something I personally struggle with.

When something is good, I don’t want it to change. I want it to stay the same forever.

There are some that say change is good. I wish I had that perspective. I would get up every morning embracing the day without fear or reservation.

Unfortunately, that’s not how I get up every day. I get up to a torrent of worry. This is my reality, my personal nightmare. With so much change and upheavel, it’s really challenging me in ways I didn’t think possible.

Perhaps in the end, it will all be for the best. Hopefully this upheaval of change will stretch my character and hopefully, my faith. Only time will tell.

How do you handle changes or saying goodbye? Is this something you struggle with too?

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You know that song from David Bowie? I’m giving away my age now.

Yes, there are many changes happening in my life right now. I don’t know about you, but I don’t embrace change too well.

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They say change is good. I guess some changes are good, but not all changes are good, at least, not for me.

I’m bummed out about one of the people I work with is leaving. We have worked together for four years. Now that we finally understand each other, he’s leaving.

I am happy for him as it’s a great opportunity, but I am sad for me.

Another change is my neighbors below me are moving out at the end of the month. Not only that, my next door neighbors are moving out too. I found this all out in a matter of one week.

I was devastated. I like the guy who is leaving and I like my neighbors who are moving out. Selfishly, I don’t want any of them going anywhere. I just want everything to remain status quo.

But this isn’t life… life is full of changes, some good and some not so good. I’m praying I’m assigned to someone kind and fair. I also pray my new neighbors are nice and considerate.

In a matter of weeks, things will be different. I am hoping it won’t be for the worst. I always seem to anticipate the worst though. Thank God I’m married to an optimist.

You know what I thought was nice about the guy who is leaving. He apologized to me. He said he was sorry he wasn’t nice or kind to me in the beginning. He said he misunderstood me. He thanked me for being patient with him (I don’t know if my husband would agree that I’m patient).

I was touched by him saying this. He didn’t have to.

It’s nice when people actually *get* me and where I’m coming from. I’ve been misunderstood far too many times in my life (but that’s for another post).

I will miss him and my neighbors greatly.

How do you handle changes in your life? Good? Bad? Please share in the comment section below.

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