There was a time in my life where I couldn’t hear, see or sense God. I would pray and it was as if the heavens were brass.
I thought my life would turn out one way and here I was, recovering from the aftermath of a difficult pregnancy, overweight, post partum, sleep deprived because my son was colic and unhappy.
I can’t tell you how hard life was for me back then. I would look around at my friends who were happy and pursuing their dreams.
But I wasn’t. I was stuck in a new reality that I did not want.
I kept asking God where He was. He didn’t seem like He was with me at all. I felt isolated and alone.
When we are in a difficult season of life, we think it will last forever.
My friends did their best to try and encourage me by saying, God is not over with me yet and He had a great plan for my life.
While I whispered under my breath, yeah right. I couldn’t see it. I felt as if God abandoned me.
I was miserable.
Instead of getting better, I got bitter. I was angry and I was envious of others who were living their lives the way I wished I could.
I honestly did not believe I would ever dream again.
I am happy to report I am dreaming again. I’m dreaming God’s dream for me before I came to earth.
You are probably wondering how long it took to get to this point. The answer is a decade. It was only up until recently I was able to dream again.
So for those of you who are raising babies, don’t know what your dreams are, feel really discouraged and inadequate, this is for you:
God has a plan for your life. He hasn’t given up on you. He hasn’t forgotten you. He hasn’t abandoned you. He loves you passionately. You are in a season right now. It won’t last forever. He is growing you in the process. Keep your eyes on Him, no matter what and He will see you through. You will dream again.
Have you stopped dreaming? Do you think God has forgotten you?