God’s Pen

This morning I had a dream. I was in that in between state, when I heard these words, “You are God’s pen.”

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You would think that at 47, I would have figured out my calling or purpose in life.

Here I am 25 years later attending college at night to pursue my undergraduate degree. I’m working long hours, and writing a novel too. I’m enduring the torturous process of taking remedial math, algebra classes and writing fiction. Yet, when it comes to knowing my major or calling is, I haven’t a clue.

This week I was brainstorming with some colleagues, and one said I should continue writing. The other said perhaps I can study forensic psychology or become a detective. She mentioned I like to research, which is true. I can spend hours researching topics of interest.

I was also thinking about becoming a lawyer, so I could help those who are facing injustice. But at the rate I’m going, I would be over 60 by the time I finish.

This morning I heard, “You are God’s pen.” I have been praying and asking God for guidance and direction. Maybe this is His answer.

But how could I possibly help people by writing and not “doing” something to make a difference?

I love to see God move in people’s lives. Nothing gives me more pleasure than to co-labor with God and see justice prevail. My passion is communicating, bringing awareness and advocating change for those facing injustice.

You see friends, I’m not into doing anything if there isn’t a higher purpose for someone to benefit from. Most writers write because they are satisfied with just writing as an art form. Don’t get me wrong, I love art. But, there is something deeper that’s propelling me. The purpose of writing for me has to be more than just making art, or for entertainment.

I am half way through my life. I don’t feel like I have much time left to be putzing around. I pray God makes it clear as to what He wants me to do and shows me the way.

Do you think writing can make a difference and change things? In what ways? Please explain in the comment section below.

  • I enjoyed reading about where you are at, Pilar. As a 41 year old woman, who found the joys of writing a little later in life, I can relate to some of the questions you have. I write because something inside me has to. Yet, over the years, I’ve discovered that I want my words to be more than just words. My family moved to Georgia almost a year ago and I still find myself trying to figure out where I fit and how I can help make a difference. I’m trying to be open minded about the things the Lord places in my path in hopes it will lead me closer to know what that is. Then I think, perhaps the journey I am on right now, is what I need to remember to embrace. I know it needs to continue to go beyond the words I write. Thanks for making me think.

    • Thank you for sharing such thoughtful and insightful comments. I pray that I can meet you in person one day. I think you are a special lady. God bless you. I will keep you in my prayers.

  • Hi Pilar! The way I see it, you are ALREADY God’s pen. Whatever you do, writing will be an integral part. It has been for quite some time now. So maybe it won’t be fiction. Maybe it will be spirituality, social activism, book and cultural reviews, etc. It’s still writing. Like the time we went to see Michael Connelly. I loved it, even though I write non-fiction. Notice your dream said DIDN’T say, “You are God’s stethoscope” or “You are God’s gavel.” It said “pen”! 🙂

    • Thank you, Greg. I realized I’m definitely not a fiction writer. Lately, I haven’t been writing much of anything. You have always been the best encourager and friend. I appreciate you, buddy.

      • Something new and fascinating is always happening with you! You’re one of my bestest friends!

        • Oh, I definitely have to fill you in on what is happening now, lol. You are one of my bestest friends too. We have so much history. I love it.