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Why I Became A Muslim

Why did I become a Muslim? That’s a good question. Because I found the people who call themselves Christians don’t conduct themselves as such.

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You see, it’s one thing to be a struggling Christian and yet another to be a Christian leader. As a leader, you are not afforded the same liberties as a lay person.

I think the mistake is that many leaders choose what they want to do, even though God didn’t call them. They want God to co-sign whatever they choose, even though He didn’t choose it for them.

This is where I believe things go awry and what causes unnecessary hurts and offenses within the body of Christ. Because they weren’t called to be leaders in the first place.

God allows them to be there because He gives us free will. However, if you are not called into those positions, you will eventually fall on your face and do some major damage in the process.

We see it time and time again amongst leaders; the misuse of power, misuse of money, misuse of position, misuse of authority and a host more.

I just went through something last week that completely threw me for a loop. I had no idea I would get the kind of response I did from someone who is a Christian leader. To make matters worse, they falsely accused me of something I wasn’t even doing.

I can’t tell you how devastated and hurt I was by this Christian’s actions and words. I wasn’t even able to be heard, get a word in edgewise or communicate on any level with this person. I was refused the opportunity, but was cut off and ignored.

The Bible says when we have an issue, we are to take it directly to that person to resolve it. (Matthew 18:15-16). We are also to live peaceably with all men. (Romans 12:18).

Leaders are supposed to know how to handle and resolve conflict and not treat others as the world does.

Which brings me back to why I became a Muslim… because of instances like the above.

Christians who are cruel, insensitive and basically have no business being in leadership positions at all as they do not exemplify the love of Christ toward others.

If truth be told, I have been treated better by unsaved people more than I have from Christians. True story.

Which is why I fell in love with the Muslim community. I was hurt by the church in more ways than one, you can read about an incident here. When I decided step down from choir and leave the church.

After 9/11, I went to Egypt by myself. I met some Muslims there and spent time with them. I was treated better than I ever was treated by Christians. I was treated so well that I cried when I had to leave.

Is this shocking for you to read? Well, this is the honest truth. Something I’ve kept hidden all this time.

I have only experienced good things amongst the Muslim community. They are kind, loving, generous and will go out of their way to help you in a heartbeat. They really understand what community is all about. I felt like I was accepted and part of a loving family. A family I never had.

I have never experienced that in the church, ever. I see fragments of it here and there, but nothing to the extent or degree that I experienced firsthand in the Muslim community.

Why didn’t I remain a Muslim?  Because I had a supernatural experience with Jesus which I believe resulted from the faithful prayers of a few friends.

This is the simple answer, but there is a whole story behind this which I can’t get into now. Perhaps some other time though.

What about you? Have you ever been hurt by the church, a pastor or another Christian leader? If so, how did you handle it? What was the outcome? I would be interested in hearing your thoughts on this.

 

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All for the Masquerade

I’ve been quiet lately. I’ve been processing since my return from a conference and the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy.

I’ve been thinking the three C’s: Christians, Conferences and Churches. I realize in all three, people hide behind a masks.

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I remember learning the waltz once. I believe it was when I was attending acting school years ago. I didn’t find it difficult to learn. 

The steps are repetitive and monotous, around and around you go… 

As with any dance, there must be proper form. The traditional waltz is both elegant and dull. 

Christians seem to like to masquerade and dance the waltz. We seem to like to hide and go around in circles. 

Much like the Israelites did in the desert, never entering in and reaching the promise land. 

I can just see God looking down and thinking, “There they go, masquerading and dancing the waltz again.” 

I don’t know Lord, I honestly don’t know… but I agree, the waltz is whack and the whole masquerade thing is played out if you ask me. It’s got no swagga, no flow or flava… 

We’re just dancing in circles like a bunch of lost robots with plastered smiles on our faces… meanwhile we’re dying inside. 

I don’t know about you, but when I walk into a room full of Christians whether at a church or conference, it seems I can feel the weight of their pain and hurt behind their smiles. 

Everyone looks good on the outside; make-up’s perfect, hair and nails did, matching Gucci bag and shoes, a fashionable hat even… ohhhh and that smile, that same smile I see time and time again… The smile with hurting eyes… 

Their smiles say one thing, while their eyes say another. Switching their gaze away quickly, lest anyone finds out. The truth.  

We are so afraid to be found out and exposed. So afraid to be seen for who and what we are. 

So we just carry on, dancing the waltz and hiding behind our masks… smiling whilst our hearts cry and souls die. 

All for the Masquerade. 

Why do you think people wear masks?

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