Prophetic Epiphany

Many years ago, I traveled to different states as an amateur boxing official representing USA Boxing. I used to judge bouts on a National and Junior Olympic level.

I’m sure you are curious as to how I got involved in boxing. It’s a long story that I might share with you some other time.

One of the things I enjoyed on my free time between bouts was visiting churches and attending their services.

However, at that time, I was living a double life, which is another story.

Despite my living in disobedience, my heart longed for God.

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At the time, God used people I didn’t know to speak into my life. People would literally walk up to me and prophesy over my life.

I learned firsthand that God is real, He uses people and He is aware of every detail of our lives.

The reality of this made me feel convicted. I was in awe of God and shocked at how these complete strangers knew so much about me.

I would continue to get the same prophecy wherever I went. Each place I visited, someone would come up to me and say the same thing.

God was definitely trying to get my attention.

The last time I received this same prophecy was about two years ago at a prayer meeting.

However, I started getting cynical and inwardly questioned God about this prophecy.

I couldn’t understand why I was getting the same prophecy over the years, but yet nothing was happening in my life.

However, this past week while I was on the bus going to work and I had an epiphany.

I realized the same prophecy I received repeatedly through the years was true and I was floored.

God finally revealed it to me.

The prophecy is this, “You will be a prophet to the nations.”

Each time I heard it uttered, I would weep from the deepest part of my being. I felt so unworthy (if truth be told, I still do).

I kept telling God He made a mistake and chose the wrong person. I felt I had failed Him and disappointed Him too many times (and still do).

I conjured up an image in my mind of what I thought “a prophet of the nations” would look like or translate to. I thought I would have to sacrifice, give up everything and travel the world.

When I got married and had my boys, I was shocked I was still getting the same prophecy.

I told God, how am I suppose to give up everything now and leave my family behind (traveling with my son who has health issues and put him at risk).

Finally, God revealed the truth, in that, He had no intention of having me sacrifice, give up everything, leave my family behind and travel to serve Him in that capacity.

I was thinking inside the box, but God doesn’t.

He revealed to me that I am a prophet of nations by writing. It finally made sense and all came together. I felt such a peace come over me.

God wants to use the gift He’s placed in me to communicate to others through writing which is my reasonable service. (Romans 12:1)

He wants to do the same with you in whatever He’s called you to do.

Do you know what God has called you to do? Are you living out His calling?

 

30 Comments

  1. Posted November 25, 2012 at 7:27 am by Leanne Penny | Permalink

    great perspective and I’m so glad that you and God met up on this.

    I am living out my call, yet with a heavy heart and a Jonah spirit most of the time, I run away.

    • Posted November 25, 2012 at 9:48 am by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      It is ok, Leanne. If you and I sat down over coffee. I would tell you more about myself and how I too ran for years. I am still not where I am suppose to be. God’s grace is immense and He understands. You are not alone. Sending you hugs. You have such a sweet spirit. I really like you. :)

  2. Posted November 25, 2012 at 10:42 am by Debi Stangeland | Permalink

    I love this post. It is real and revealing and very thought provoking. Well done my friend.

    And to answer your question, yes, I am living out my calling. But it is always good hear that others struggle with the details too!

    • Posted November 25, 2012 at 10:50 am by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Hey Debi, thank you so much. I appreciate your encouragement and support. It means a great deal to me. I’m so happy you are living your calling. I think you are amazing. :)

  3. Posted November 25, 2012 at 12:59 pm by Emily Pitman | Permalink

    AMEN! BIG AMEN!

  4. Posted November 25, 2012 at 1:16 pm by Jamie Kocur | Permalink

    I think I go thru seasons of life, some where I know I am definitely living out God’s calling. Then I enter a new season where I’m trying to figure out my “new” calling, or how the old calling fits into my new season of life. I struggle, but I think I’m starting to fit back into His calling.

  5. Posted November 25, 2012 at 2:00 pm by Tammy Helfrich | Permalink

    Love the epiphanies that are years in the making, but finally make sense. I know it aleays helps me to have some clarity. Proud of you and believe God is using you in amazing ways.

    • Posted November 25, 2012 at 2:35 pm by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Love you Tammy. I am so thankful for you and your consistent encouragement. I am blessed to know you and have you for a friend.

  6. Posted November 25, 2012 at 2:08 pm by annepeterson | Permalink

    Really enjoyed this, Pilar. It’s always exciting when someone confirms what God wants you to do, or as in your case you got the confirmation after everyone else. Writing is an awesome responsibility. I used to think that God wanted me to speak and every time I had the opportunity to speak it felt like it was getting confirmed, but it’s been a while so I think I start doubting when I don’t get to speak. And yet, someone pointed out to me that writing is still speaking, in written form.

    • Posted November 25, 2012 at 2:39 pm by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Oh yes. Writing is a gift God has given you. The world needs you. Writing what God puts on your heart can cross barriers where physically speaking can’t. Thanks for thoughtful comment. I appreciate it.

  7. Posted November 25, 2012 at 6:59 pm by Kathleen Caron | Permalink

    This is a powerful epiphany, and very convicting. I think from what I have seen of your writing and communications, it’s very true. As for me, there have been many times I thought I knew what God was calling me to do, that turned into dead ends. Anyway, it is very thought provoking. thanks Pilar.

  8. Posted November 25, 2012 at 9:33 pm by Heather Goyette | Permalink

    How great to have others around you confirm your calling. I guess that makes it more difficult to run from! I like what you said about thinking inside the box. We often have preconceived ideas about how God is going to use whatever gift we have and then are completely surprised when He uses it in a completely different way!

    • Posted November 25, 2012 at 10:13 pm by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Hi Heather. Yes, this is true. However, I wish I could say I never ran from it. I did and if I am completely honest, the inclination is still there. But God used many different people who did not know me or each other to confirm it. The calling isn’t an easy one either. Thanks for reading my post and commenting. I hope you drop by again. :)

  9. Posted November 25, 2012 at 11:31 pm by Jim Woods | Permalink

    This is amazing Pilar!! Wow. I am not 100% sure what God wants me to do. But I know I’m on the right track. And that’s a GREAT FEELING. I’m getting there. Right now in all honesty I’m “experimenting” as our friend Jon would say.

    • Posted November 26, 2012 at 7:16 am by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Thank you, Jim. Me too. I am experimenting. But I honestly am happy God revealed that I am.on the right track. :)

  10. Posted November 26, 2012 at 12:08 am by Denise Dilley | Permalink

    This is awesome! I love seeing how God works things out in our lives, often in the ways we least expect Him to. :)

  11. Posted November 26, 2012 at 9:46 am by Jeff Goins | Permalink

    Pilar, you have incredible stories. The world needs to hear more of them.

  12. Posted November 26, 2012 at 9:56 am by Michelle Woodman | Permalink

    That is so awesome how God works, isn’t it, Pilar? I, too, have received prophetic words which have left me shaking my head (and shaking in my shoes) *and* realizing God does have a sense of humour, too, with certain things. ;-)

    • Posted November 26, 2012 at 10:33 am by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      God is totally amazing… and how He does things is so unique and awesome. And yes, it is kind of scary sometimes, most times actually, LOL!

  13. Posted November 26, 2012 at 2:30 pm by marilyn luinstra | Permalink

    Hi Pilar. Boxing official AND artist. Love the pic you used with this story. Thanks for sharing it.

    • Posted November 26, 2012 at 2:37 pm by Pilar Arsenec | Permalink

      Thank you, Marilyn. Yeah, it’s kind of strange huh? Boxing and Art. LOL! I’m actually more of an artist, I just seemed to have gotten caught up in the boxing world for little while. It was an interesting experience.

  14. Posted November 27, 2012 at 11:12 am by Christa Sterken | Permalink

    Pilar I can’t wait to see where your journey takes you, my new friend

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